July's Tsunamis of Change were intense and chaotic. Although the month 
          was laced with breakthroughs, the Big Final Breakthrough into our new 
          positionings remained elusive. 
        During the month of August, the intensity 
          is going to increase, stretching us even further beyond the parameters 
          of our comfort zones. It going to take tremendous courage and trust 
          for us to see it through. Sometimes, it will be easy to contemplate 
          giving up, but we can't. There's no going backwards. We've gone too 
          far, and although it may not currently appear so, a positive outcome 
          is assured.
        All year long, we've talked about moving 
          to a new octave of being. About undergoing a repositioning process. 
          About reclaiming our Personal Freedom. About shifting the very matrix 
          of our beings. And this is exactly what we are experiencing. 
        Some of us are in the thick of it, being 
          thoroughly dismantled, while others are surfing smoothly. This disparity 
          of experiences has nothing to do with personal evolution or individual 
          karma. It's just a condition of balance which requires that some of 
          us always remain in calmer waters to hold the beam for the ones of us 
          being slammed about in the Tsunamis of Change. If we all were thrust 
          in the intensity at the same time, we probably wouldn't make it through.
        If you are having an easy time of it, 
          please don't go into judgment about those who aren't. We are all doing 
          this together as One Being. The ones of us who are being thrown about 
          in the intensity are clearing a path for all of us into the new octave. 
          (Think of us out in a dense, very dangerous jungle, clearing a path 
          with a small machete.) The rest of us are holding the space of the 
          One Heart, and I hope, encouraging us through. This is part of the dynamic 
          of Mutual Support which is becoming an essential component of our further 
          evolution.
        We are in a critical time where the challenges 
          are many. Much of this Surf Report is directed towards those who are 
          currently being challenged to the core.
        Here are a few of the key elements we 
          are experiencing:
        DISMANTLING & FRAGMENTING 
          OF OUR OLD WAYS OF BEING:
          
          Up until a few months ago, we had our lives fairly together. Then we 
          started being slammed by the Tsunamis of Change. All our established 
          order, all our efficient ways of functioning, all our semblance of comfort 
          and security, were fragmented into millions of pieces in an instant. 
          Just picture it: It's like a house with everything in the right place 
          and all our nice, established patterns of doing things, getting hit 
          by a gigantic wave. The house breaks apart, possessions go flying off 
          in all directions, and we're left to continue on with our life.
         Now, there's no way to put 
          the old house back together, even if we wanted to, which most of us 
          don't. And even if we could remember how we used to do things, everything 
          has been so profoundly rearranged (and a lot of stuff we can't even 
          find!), that returning to the old patterns is an impossibility.
        And it's not even like the 
          tsunami has moved us into a new dwelling. More likely, we've found ourselves 
          deposited onto the shore of a new land, and we're lying there gasping 
          for air, trying to get the seaweed out of our matted hair and fashion 
          a rough shelter out of driftwood or whatever else is available in our 
          immediate environment. Heck, we're lucky to be alive!
        Even here, it's not a matter 
          of building any sort of permanent shelter. We're not yet in our right 
          place. We're closer than before, but we're just in a temporary situation. 
          Around us are the flying fragments of our life, swirling around up in 
          the air, most of them tantalizingly just out of reach. And try as we 
          may to grab them, it's not yet time for them to land.
        Which leads us to REPOSITIONING:
        Repositioning has to do with 
          shifting our Matrix. If you see each of us as a beautiful mandala, then 
          what is happening right now is that the mandala of our being is spinning 
          around and as it does, all the colors and objects and shapes and symbols 
          on it start spinning around so fast that it all becomes a blur. Then 
          these blurry elements of our mandalas detach themselves from the canvas 
          and are airborne. As these fragments fly around in the general direction 
          of the now blank canvas, they are being dramatically transformed. What 
          may have been a separate blue and a separate yellow are merging and 
          forming a vibrant new green. What may have been two triangles might 
          be joining together to create a diamond.
        "Great!" we say, 
          "This is what we are becoming. Finally, some clear information! 
          Let's see what the new pattern is." We are so hungry for a clue, 
          for some sort of outer confirmation of our inner intuition. And yet 
          when we look at it, much of our new mandala is still a blur. Once in 
          awhile, we can make out a shape or an object, (and it's so exciting 
          and comforting to see something discernible there!), but then the 
          mandala continues to spin and the shape disappears. This gives us the 
          Three Steps Forward, Two Steps Backwards feeling. We're walking towards 
          that Open Doorway and we know the lasting breakthrough is near, but 
          it remains ever elusive, just out of reach.
          
        As if living in a state of 
          heightened intensity and uncertainty, mixed with a chaotic disarray 
          isn't enough to cope with, there's the element of PERSONAL FREEDOM to 
          deal with.
        PERSONAL FREEDOM sounds good 
          as a concept. It something which most of us would like to achieve. It's 
          just that the scope of it is far greater than we had imagined. It's 
          not just a superficial letting go. Rather, it's a core level releasing 
          of all that has kept us from being real and true. 
        This element of PERSONAL 
          FREEDOM is causing us to dredge down into the very fibers and cells 
          of our beings and clear out the layers of old emotional residue of the 
          past. Much of our emotional residue has been stuffed inside us, much 
          like putting a huge pile of garbage into a small container. Rather than 
          emptying it out, we constantly push it down to make room for more. Until 
          finally, it's so compacted and stuffed inside that it doesn't come out 
          very easily.
        This is why many of us are 
          having accidents or health conditions flare up. It's to help us loosen 
          and remove our emotional residue. We need to pay close attention to 
          the areas which are affected and see what memories, prior experiences 
          or feelings that we have stuffed there. Look at the core issues connected 
          with the affected part of your body and release whatever you can.
        This is a time when many 
          emotions are coming up. We are experiencing so many emotions that there's 
          no time to hold onto any of them. Just feel them and let go. And don't 
          worry if your emotions are all over the map. That's just how it is right 
          now. We are clearing up and righting many wrongs of the past and letting 
          go of depositories of pain stored in our cells. 
        Another thing which is happening 
          to our emotions is the dissolving of those protective walls that we 
          have created in the past. It's time for us to learn how to love and 
          be loved with our full beings. And there's really no need to maintain 
          any barriers to embodying the full extent of our love. Love will help 
          move us through the intensity.
        Everything that we are currently 
          experiencing is part of the process of SHIFTING OUR MATRIX. It's creating 
          our new mandala. It's something that we've worked hard to be able to 
          do. It's just that it's a lot harder and more challenging than we thought 
          it would be. It's more all-encompassing. It's infinitely vaster. It's 
          off-the-map vaster. It's touching every element of our beings and affecting 
          every element of our lives. It's huge and intense and often not very 
          much fun. But it's what we have to do to get to the next level.
         Perhaps some of us can get 
          there in an easier way, but for most of us, the journey is going to 
          take us right through the heart of the fire. The important thing to 
          remember is that we're not on this journey alone. We're doing it together 
          as One. 
        Another important thing to 
          remember is that we are all standing in front of an enormous OPEN DOORWAY. 
          It's right in front of us, shimmering away, so close and yet so far.... 
          If you can't yet see it, perhaps you can feel it. The resonance it sends 
          forth gives us that underlying sense of CERTAINTY that we carry deep 
          inside as we travel through the shifting, surface layers of uncertainty 
          which permeate almost everything. We need to hold onto that deep inner 
          CERTAINTY as we move through the shifting uncertainty. This resonance 
          of CERTAINTY will guide us towards the OPEN DOORWAY and finally, through..... 
          to the other side.
        We are in a time of SACRED 
          PAUSE. What this means is that our passage through the OPEN DOORWAY 
          is assured. We stand at the threshold of our new lives. It is during 
          the time of the SACRED PAUSE in which we are called to comb through 
          our beings, through all the elements of our lives, through all our past 
          experiences, through our accumulated emotional residue, to clear out 
          and transform what is no longer appropriate to go through the doorway 
          with us.
        August will be an intense 
          and challenging month full of activity, but it will create the situations 
          that move us through into our new positionings. We will experience 
          major breakthroughs....
        Keep focused on the vaster 
          picture of what is really at play. Feel your emotions, but try not to 
          become overwhelmed by them. BE LIKE WATER. Go with the flow. If the 
          obstacles pile up in front of you, just keep flowing until you've flowed 
          around them or over them. Find a few people with whom you can share 
          this journey. Mutual support is extremely helpful right now. You might 
          also find it helpful to reread all of this year's Surf Reports as there 
          is an underlying theme throughout them. 
        And most importantly, keep 
          remembering that we are very close to being repositioned to new situations 
          that will be much truer to our core beings. Comfort is coming. Creativity 
          is coming. We are going to really like what awaits us on the other side 
          of the doorway.
        This is one powerful birth 
          and we are going through it together.....
         
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