Like Peru and Tahiti before,
my experience of the 7th Gate Activation went slightly differently than
that of the rest of the group. It was very clear and specific and stunningly
powerful. I was actually so shocked by the way I experienced it and
by the power of it that I could not speak about it to anybody. As usual
I thought it would not be received properly simply because I would not
have been able to describe it properly. For a while I thought it was
one of my individual unusual experiences that perhaps did not relate
to everyone because it was too personal, but I know now that it was
exactly what the Activation energy was, experienced through a particular
individual.
I came to this Activation unusually neutral, sort of unprepared, resigned
to whatever forces were pushing me, or whatever waves I drifted on.
No ideas what to expect, sort of - not giving a damn about anything,
which is rather unusual for me when it comes to this type of work. I
had also felt old energy burning out within me for quite a while, and
I think that the inflammation I had gone through was an outer manifestation
of that burning. I had felt depleted of energy and coming to India clearly
energized me.
For the few days before we got together in Udaipur I had a conflict
between my male and female aspects, experiencing my presence in India
in a powerful male body of a past life in India, as if traveling in
time from the past to the present, looking at India from the point of
view of that powerful incarnation from the past, also looking at "my
dearest people" struggling in poverty.
During the first day of
looking at India (my trip to Jaipur and Amber Fort, which I recognized
as a place I had stayed at) I was carried by curiosity, the second day
ended in sadness and discomfort in my body.
After I arrived in Udaipur
the integration of the two aspects began. It was not the same as unifying
polarities (which was a process that had happened long ago and I had
been balanced in that respect), because it was very much as if the process
descended from my consciousness to the physical level, also as if there
were a karmic link between the two because of the fact that the male
aspect was a past life in India. It was a linking of the male and female
energies, with the female accepting the male energy within the consciousness
and the physical body, diffusing the karma of its past lives.
I felt as if both (consciousness
and physical body) expanded and changed, as if moved a circle up the
evolutionary spiral. Nevertheless my discomfort in my physical body,
as well as general feeling of discomfort, of something at odds within
me, continued. I knew there was a powerful change going on, while I
had no idea what exactly it was. It was only after the Activation that
I realized it was the old energy being replaced by the new energy coming
into my whole being, including the physical level.
I realized that the matrix of the universe, the planet and our beings
was reset, and moved to a new position. The resetting was total and
included the physical level. Now it is up to us, individually, to accept
the new settings.
At the Activation itself, I felt the energy of love coming gently, yet
powerfully as we went through the dances. I did not feel anything in
particular, wondering what was wrong with me again that I didn't feel
or experience anything dramatic. The dance that changed it was the Sacred
Spiral Dance, the Lovers from Beyond the Stars. Anastra was my partner,
when I suddenly realized I was in fact dancing with my Lover from Beyond
the Stars. The energy of this being was not within Anastra; it was as
if a beam behind her, stretching across the universe into infinity.
I was also a beam stretching into infinity. It was a very powerful dance
of beams stretching across the universe.
When the dance was coming
to an end and we were standing in a circle, the energy from the being
dancing with me went into me and then shot up through me, while at the
same time the energy entering me from above went into the being of my
Lover from Beyond the Stars and shot upwards through him. The two lines
of energy went across the universe linking up and coming back through
us creating a loop (I did not see it exactly as a circle). These were
energy lines of pure love going through us, across the universe and
the planet.
I saw the same lines in
a microscopic dimension within the cells of my physical body, busting
my cells, my DNA, and resetting them in new configurations. It was happening
with such power that I was stunned (literally blown away), I felt myself
out of my body and consciousness. I became that energy. I saw others
as such energy lines going across the universe and the planet. We became
a grid of pure love energy lines, a love grid of the universe and the
planet.
I was still within that experience when the group started the Lotus
Dance (the second one that night), and it just did not work for me.
The Lotus Dance was the wrong dance for me and I could not do it. I
stayed there for a while, but I felt a strong pull to get away from
it, so I left with another person in order not to disrupt the dance.
One reason why it felt inappropriate for me was that what was happening
was not one beam coming into the core of the earth, being anchored there.
We were not "holding the beam" or the energy and sending it
out. We were multiple beams ourselves.
I felt it would have been
more appropriate if we started dancing individually all over the place.
The energy went through us in multiple beams wherever we were at the
time, not necessarily in the circle of the Lotus Dance, all over the
world in fact. I also believe that it did not matter whether we were
asleep or conscious at the time. What was important (in my experience
and understanding) was that we had given permission to be the vehicles
of this energy. We accepted it and sent it through us regardless of
what we were doing at the time. I saw it as a completely new way for
the energy to precipitate.
I was pulled away from the Lotus Dance towards a far end of the courtyard,
not really knowing why I needed to go there. As I approached the end
of the path I sensed / felt / vaguely saw a being sitting on a platform.
It was the energy of an Indian incarnation of my Lover from Beyond the
Stars. Again, it was not without a purpose that this energy was that
of a male since mine was female. We communicated and I got some more
information. Among other things he told me we had not met in this life,
but would still meet and be together for a fairly short period of time.
He was leaving the planet, while I was staying.
Among the people that I
will now be meeting there will be new partners for the new cycle of
lives I am starting on the planet. The process is very much like the
replacement of old energy with the new. It is happening within and in
outer life. This is part of the nature of my individual personal bridge
function (the whole bridging function is of course wider than that).
In terms of "Seeing the Unseen" after the Activation, the
first "seeing" I experienced were realizations of myself and
my potentials - the power coming from Love and Oneness, also a new view
of the invincibility through love that we carry within.
By the way, I fully identify with what Asena wrote. We all experienced
that power of pure love and interwovenness within the One Being, each
one of us in our individual ways.
Love.... Alicja