July's Tsunamis of Change were intense and chaotic. Although the month
was laced with breakthroughs, the Big Final Breakthrough into our new
positionings remained elusive.
During the month of August, the intensity
is going to increase, stretching us even further beyond the parameters
of our comfort zones. It going to take tremendous courage and trust
for us to see it through. Sometimes, it will be easy to contemplate
giving up, but we can't. There's no going backwards. We've gone too
far, and although it may not currently appear so, a positive outcome
All year long, we've talked about moving
to a new octave of being. About undergoing a repositioning process.
About reclaiming our Personal Freedom. About shifting the very matrix
of our beings. And this is exactly what we are experiencing.
Some of us are in the thick of it, being
thoroughly dismantled, while others are surfing smoothly. This disparity
of experiences has nothing to do with personal evolution or individual
karma. It's just a condition of balance which requires that some of
us always remain in calmer waters to hold the beam for the ones of us
being slammed about in the Tsunamis of Change. If we all were thrust
in the intensity at the same time, we probably wouldn't make it through.
If you are having an easy time of it,
please don't go into judgment about those who aren't. We are all doing
this together as One Being. The ones of us who are being thrown about
in the intensity are clearing a path for all of us into the new octave.
(Think of us out in a dense, very dangerous jungle, clearing a path
with a small machete.) The rest of us are holding the space of the
One Heart, and I hope, encouraging us through. This is part of the dynamic
of Mutual Support which is becoming an essential component of our further
We are in a critical time where the challenges
are many. Much of this Surf Report is directed towards those who are
currently being challenged to the core.
Here are a few of the key elements we
DISMANTLING & FRAGMENTING
OF OUR OLD WAYS OF BEING:
Up until a few months ago, we had our lives fairly together. Then we
started being slammed by the Tsunamis of Change. All our established
order, all our efficient ways of functioning, all our semblance of comfort
and security, were fragmented into millions of pieces in an instant.
Just picture it: It's like a house with everything in the right place
and all our nice, established patterns of doing things, getting hit
by a gigantic wave. The house breaks apart, possessions go flying off
in all directions, and we're left to continue on with our life.
Now, there's no way to put
the old house back together, even if we wanted to, which most of us
don't. And even if we could remember how we used to do things, everything
has been so profoundly rearranged (and a lot of stuff we can't even
find!), that returning to the old patterns is an impossibility.
And it's not even like the
tsunami has moved us into a new dwelling. More likely, we've found ourselves
deposited onto the shore of a new land, and we're lying there gasping
for air, trying to get the seaweed out of our matted hair and fashion
a rough shelter out of driftwood or whatever else is available in our
immediate environment. Heck, we're lucky to be alive!
Even here, it's not a matter
of building any sort of permanent shelter. We're not yet in our right
place. We're closer than before, but we're just in a temporary situation.
Around us are the flying fragments of our life, swirling around up in
the air, most of them tantalizingly just out of reach. And try as we
may to grab them, it's not yet time for them to land.
Which leads us to REPOSITIONING:
Repositioning has to do with
shifting our Matrix. If you see each of us as a beautiful mandala, then
what is happening right now is that the mandala of our being is spinning
around and as it does, all the colors and objects and shapes and symbols
on it start spinning around so fast that it all becomes a blur. Then
these blurry elements of our mandalas detach themselves from the canvas
and are airborne. As these fragments fly around in the general direction
of the now blank canvas, they are being dramatically transformed. What
may have been a separate blue and a separate yellow are merging and
forming a vibrant new green. What may have been two triangles might
be joining together to create a diamond.
"Great!" we say,
"This is what we are becoming. Finally, some clear information!
Let's see what the new pattern is." We are so hungry for a clue,
for some sort of outer confirmation of our inner intuition. And yet
when we look at it, much of our new mandala is still a blur. Once in
awhile, we can make out a shape or an object, (and it's so exciting
and comforting to see something discernible there!), but then the
mandala continues to spin and the shape disappears. This gives us the
Three Steps Forward, Two Steps Backwards feeling. We're walking towards
that Open Doorway and we know the lasting breakthrough is near, but
it remains ever elusive, just out of reach.
As if living in a state of
heightened intensity and uncertainty, mixed with a chaotic disarray
isn't enough to cope with, there's the element of PERSONAL FREEDOM to
PERSONAL FREEDOM sounds good
as a concept. It something which most of us would like to achieve. It's
just that the scope of it is far greater than we had imagined. It's
not just a superficial letting go. Rather, it's a core level releasing
of all that has kept us from being real and true.
This element of PERSONAL
FREEDOM is causing us to dredge down into the very fibers and cells
of our beings and clear out the layers of old emotional residue of the
past. Much of our emotional residue has been stuffed inside us, much
like putting a huge pile of garbage into a small container. Rather than
emptying it out, we constantly push it down to make room for more. Until
finally, it's so compacted and stuffed inside that it doesn't come out
This is why many of us are
having accidents or health conditions flare up. It's to help us loosen
and remove our emotional residue. We need to pay close attention to
the areas which are affected and see what memories, prior experiences
or feelings that we have stuffed there. Look at the core issues connected
with the affected part of your body and release whatever you can.
This is a time when many
emotions are coming up. We are experiencing so many emotions that there's
no time to hold onto any of them. Just feel them and let go. And don't
worry if your emotions are all over the map. That's just how it is right
now. We are clearing up and righting many wrongs of the past and letting
go of depositories of pain stored in our cells.
Another thing which is happening
to our emotions is the dissolving of those protective walls that we
have created in the past. It's time for us to learn how to love and
be loved with our full beings. And there's really no need to maintain
any barriers to embodying the full extent of our love. Love will help
move us through the intensity.
Everything that we are currently
experiencing is part of the process of SHIFTING OUR MATRIX. It's creating
our new mandala. It's something that we've worked hard to be able to
do. It's just that it's a lot harder and more challenging than we thought
it would be. It's more all-encompassing. It's infinitely vaster. It's
off-the-map vaster. It's touching every element of our beings and affecting
every element of our lives. It's huge and intense and often not very
much fun. But it's what we have to do to get to the next level.
Perhaps some of us can get
there in an easier way, but for most of us, the journey is going to
take us right through the heart of the fire. The important thing to
remember is that we're not on this journey alone. We're doing it together
Another important thing to
remember is that we are all standing in front of an enormous OPEN DOORWAY.
It's right in front of us, shimmering away, so close and yet so far....
If you can't yet see it, perhaps you can feel it. The resonance it sends
forth gives us that underlying sense of CERTAINTY that we carry deep
inside as we travel through the shifting, surface layers of uncertainty
which permeate almost everything. We need to hold onto that deep inner
CERTAINTY as we move through the shifting uncertainty. This resonance
of CERTAINTY will guide us towards the OPEN DOORWAY and finally, through.....
to the other side.
We are in a time of SACRED
PAUSE. What this means is that our passage through the OPEN DOORWAY
is assured. We stand at the threshold of our new lives. It is during
the time of the SACRED PAUSE in which we are called to comb through
our beings, through all the elements of our lives, through all our past
experiences, through our accumulated emotional residue, to clear out
and transform what is no longer appropriate to go through the doorway
August will be an intense
and challenging month full of activity, but it will create the situations
that move us through into our new positionings. We will experience
Keep focused on the vaster
picture of what is really at play. Feel your emotions, but try not to
become overwhelmed by them. BE LIKE WATER. Go with the flow. If the
obstacles pile up in front of you, just keep flowing until you've flowed
around them or over them. Find a few people with whom you can share
this journey. Mutual support is extremely helpful right now. You might
also find it helpful to reread all of this year's Surf Reports as there
is an underlying theme throughout them.
And most importantly, keep
remembering that we are very close to being repositioned to new situations
that will be much truer to our core beings. Comfort is coming. Creativity
is coming. We are going to really like what awaits us on the other side
of the doorway.
This is one powerful birth
and we are going through it together.....
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