March is a difficult month to write about since it is so full of paradoxes. Things are certainly not as they appear throughout the month. Just when we think for sure that we know something, or feel something, or want to do something, the veils shift and a vaster perspective is revealed.
us in the challenging situation of constantly having to look beyond
outer appearances and keep our beings stretched wide open. We need to
constantly question everything and continually look at everything with
new eyes. Nothing is set in stone; absolutely nothing is certain.
At the beginning
of the month, we may feel overwhelmed by a sense of inertia. It feels
difficult, if not impossible, to get things done. Yet, we are actually
very busy and doing a lot more than we realize. It's just that so very
much is happening and it is happening on such a large scale and it is
happening in different ways than what we are used to. This makes everything
feel different and difficult to measure using our old methods of achievement.
are now coming into our lives. It's just that we are not yet certain
which ones to follow. Although we have long looked forward to new opportunities,
this makes us take the rather surprising stance of sitting back and
waiting. Calmly observing the possibilities, but not jumping into them.
We are waiting to see what lies beyond these opportunities. Where
will they really take us? And do we really want to go there?
It is still
a time of feeling very alone and needing to be alone. Another Paradox:
we crave friendship and companionship, to be with kindred beings; yet
we know that we need to be alone at this time. This is because we are
still delving deep inside ourselves, deeper than we have ever ventured
before, to discern what we really value in our lives. To see what we
really want to do. To discover who we have now become.
we are going to be doing a "Spring Cleaning" of our emotions,
sifting through all the forgotten corners, coming to new realizations,
crying those unshed tears and letting go of any remainders of unresolved
us have felt that we are dying. We've been feeling this for many months,
but we probably aren't. It's just that so many parts of our beings and
of our history are dying away. For many of us, it feels like there is
someone behind us sweeping away the footprints of our past. We glance
behind us trying to find some of the touchstones and potent memories
which used to feed and sustain us, but they are no longer there. The
past is becoming blank.
that the memories are gone; we still remember the details of many experiences.
But the emotional charge of our past is gone. It has been greatly neutralized
and there is little to grab onto. This is a disconcerting feeling, making
us feel like boats which have pulled away from their moorings and are
starting to drift out to sea.
out to sea doesn't give us a great sense of control or of knowing our
new direction, but it does give us heightened freedom. Since this is
the year of the activation of the 5th Gate of the 11:11, which will
take place in the fall with the Master Cylinder probably in Asia, it's
not surprising. The keynote of 5th Gate is Personal Freedom. This is
exactly what we are in the process of achieving. The reason that it's
not entirely comfortable is that it's taking us into places where we
haven't been before. The great Unknown. And it is also closing our options
of clinging to the past or to our past behaviors. We couldn't go back
even if we tried or even if we wanted to. The bridge has evaporated;
the door behind us is closed.
Paradox: Just when we have accepted the unacceptable and unresolved
situations in our lives, they are going to resolve themselves.
At the same
time that we are on this amazing journey into freedom and Oneness, the
world situation continues to get stranger and more ominous. Another
Paradox. Again, it's vitally important that we don't attach ourselves
to the outer appearance of things. THINGS ARE NOT AS THEY APPEAR. There
is so much fear and so much distortion and so much duality and so much
misinformation and so much hatred swirling about right now. We have
to be very aware of these elements, yet not get engulfed by them. We
need to continually strengthen our compassion and hold EVERYONE, EVERYTHING,
all over the planet in our One Heart, all the time!
is serious stuff. This can help turn the tide. We need to be committed
to this and not get drawn into the duality.
Paradox: As those who embrace Oneness become more free on deep inner
levels and in the clean expression of our core beings in our outer lives,
our governments and religions are steadily taking away many of our established
societal freedoms in the name of fear and protection.
Paradox: As the climate becomes unwelcome for even mild forms of questioning
or dissent, we are speaking and acting upon our truth more than ever
Paradox: As the world becomes more unreal; we become more real.
a time of profoundly deep realizations. Only when we hone our beings
and get very real and very true, will we be able to start going through
the open doorways which are all around us. Part of obtaining our Personal
Freedom is the realization that "We are far more free than we allow
ourselves to be."
holds us back? Is it real? Is it our fears of living large? Is it our
own selves? What can we do to reclaim our Personal Freedom?
have amazing Green Lights in March and beyond to go forward and fulfill
our truest heart's desires. We can "have it all". We can be
wildly creative. We can be of great service to humanity. The year 2002
is one big Green Light. We only have to see and feel and know that the
light is green and to be sure that what we put our energy into is still
what we really want. Part of our inner process that we are going through
at this time will be to sift through our old dreams and see which ones
are still true for us. And to be open to discern our New Directions,
which just might be something totally unexpected.
Paradox: We may often feel as if we have lost hope that what we have
long sought will ever happen. The reality is that it has never been
an incredible matrix of Right Time, Right Place just in front of us.
As soon as we have made all the inner adjustments within our beings,
we will be there, right in the center of it, in the calm eye of the
storm. This eye of the storm is our One Heart, the place where all of
us scattered about the planet meet. We may not be able to be together
in the physical yet, but we are all there in the core of the One Heart
and we can feel the presence of the others.
Paradox: Scattered and separated, yet more together in Oneness than
unfold quickly, constantly accelerating. Decisions will be made to follow
some of the opportunities opening up in our lives. These decisions won't
be anguished over, but will happen naturally, organically, and feel
Paradox: While we are becoming increasingly timeless, time itself is
speeding up so much that it has become almost meaningless. This year
is going to go by like a blur.
will set the stage for all that is to come. We will reach a place of
readiness and of knowing. By month's end, we be emerging from the shell
of our self imposed isolation, ready to find a new place in the Sun,
ready to be more real and true than ever before.