Some of us are changing our residence in October and a few of us are even moving into our True Homes, including me. After fourteen months of construction, on October 3rd, we finally moved into our True Home at The Heart of AN in Peru. The below photo shows the progress we have made after eleven days of solid unpacking. There is still much to do....
During the first week in our True Home, we unpacked hundreds of boxes, sorted through thousands of items, fixed leaks in the sinks and toilets, made major progress in our ecological sewage system, installed lights and window blinds and much, much more. I pulled a ligament from so much activity and could barely walk for several days. I went through a night of cleansing, vomiting until I felt completely transparent. Ancient wounds of the past that I didn't know I carried, came up to be released. At the same time, no matter what was happening, I was in complete awe and deepest gratitude to finally be here. Everything is so amazingly beautiful, both the nature and the house. I am finally breathing The Air I Can Breathe.
What does it feel like to live in your True Home? First of all, there's a strong sense of comfort and familiarity. The sense of returning home to a deeper, vaster part of our True Self. And of being truly at home on this planet in ways we never imagined possible. There's the feeling of totally clicking into position in our RIGHT TIME - RIGHT PLACE.
There's an old expression from the great Inka Pachakuti, "The Flowering of my Tears". What this means is that our Years of Tears have watered the earth for so long. We have cried and cried throughout the ages for both the beautiful and the ugly; we have let go of so much, and finally, at this moment, the most sacred and beautiful flowers can bloom from our tears. The Flowering of our Tears represents a time of fulfillment which follows a long period of difficulty. These are not just normal, earthly flowers. They are sacred flowers which can only grow after we have passed through a prolonged time of struggle and transformation into a time of rebirthing into a New, True Life. They are the precious flowers of our most inner core essence which will produce sacred seeds that will grow a New World. And this is exactly what it feels like. My Years of Tears, my entire journey on this planet for innumerable lifetimes, is now being transformed into the most exquisite flowers.
It's very appropriate that Inka Pachakuti spoke of this, because according to the Andean tradition we are in the time of Pachakuti which symbolizes a great cosmic transformation when the world as we know it flips over into something totally new. It's also known as the Time of Returning to Ourselves -- our true, authentic selves. It's the beginning of a new era in the fabric of time.
This is exactly what happens when you finally move to your True Home. It triggers a massive RESET of our entire beings, of everything we have ever known. This doesn't happen all at once; it's a gradual process, just like when we move in, everything isn't in perfect order. There's still a long list of things to do. This is when you find the glitches that need to be repaired. There are myriad boxes to unpack, curtains to put up, towel bars to install, corners to clean. And we have to either find the right place for everything we brought or let it go.
The same thing is happening within us. We soon discover old habits and patterns that we brought with us which no longer belong in our True Home. Long hidden pockets of ancient wounds may suddenly burst to the surface because they cannot survive in the new resonance. There's a huge sifting and sorting process taking place, as if our entire being and our entire journey is being run through a giant sieve.
Long held ideals and dreams are suddenly popping like bubbles. Something you thought was real and held sacred for years, can suddenly be revealed as false. I experienced this a few days ago when we unpacked a very special, antique bed from Bali. I bought this in Kauai, Hawaii in 2008, but never used it, saving it for my New Life. I only saw it once, at a moving sale. It had wooden sides carved with pink and green flowers. There were actually two antique Bali beds at the sale; the other one was shorter and darker with a totally different energy. A few days after I saw it, it was delivered to my house, all taken apart and packed.
For years, I dreamt about finally using my Bali bed; I even called it my Celestial Barge. The other day it was finally unpacked. Imagine my shock and extreme disappointment when I realized that they had given me the short and dark bed! I know that this wasn't an accident; it was an obvious deception, but one that took me many years to discover. We haven't decided what to do with it since we have too many things to do right now. We may paint it and try to recalibrate it or we may sell it.
Many touchstones of our entire journey are incorporated into our True Home. But now, they are in a new context which changes their meaning and allows us to see them with new eyes. The threads of our beings are all coming together in a totally new configuration to create a completely new patterning. Being in our True Home brings forth new parts of ourselves which we couldn't previously access since we never knew that they were there.
THE POWER IS IN THE DETAILS
Dealing with mountains of tiny details is an essential component of birthing the New World. It's within the most minute and mundane, practical details that the New is revealed. As increasing numbers of details are accomplished, a much larger picture is revealed. All these tiny details are like jigsaw puzzle pieces and adhere to a greater purpose. We aren't sure what the picture will look like in the end, but it feels good and exciting to put things together into a new patterning. As we focus on each small detail, we realize that it is actually part of an infinitely vaster picture. During this process, every completed detail reveals a long line of new details, ready to take its position. Details are a major key for this time.
We thought that unpacking the boxes which I haven't seen for four to six years would be like one hundred Christmases, but it's not. No residue of the past is connected to the items that I brought. I may remember the stories of buying some items during my travels or receiving them as special gifts, but there's no sticky emotional residue connected to them.
The organizing of the New Landscape has to be done in a new way, in its own unique rhythm, its own correct timing. We can't just unpack things and put them directly into their True Positions. A few things may go right into their True Positions, but most of them need to wait until their True Position is revealed. Until then, they can go through a presorting process.
We are riding a super strong, no frills, wave of DO WHAT'S NEEDED WHEN IT IS NEEDED and we don't have the option of doing anything else. While unpacking, we may not be able to find our sacred objects, but the practical things like my small Botswana basket of push pins is found. These are the items that we most need now and they are here. Everywhere we look, there are at least ten things that need to be done; in most directions there are over a hundred details that must be dealt with.
Some of us are feeling a deep, deep exhaustion with a never ending stream of details in front of us. We may experience a surface grouchiness at times which is caused by having to do things when we are so profoundly tired. But underneath it all is a natural happiness. We feel deeply fulfilling and very much at home.
We're HERE, but we're not FULLY HERE. We're not "somewhere else"; we're not living in our past or our old lives, but we haven't fully caught up to where we are. We haven't yet fully expanded or aligned ourselves with our True Position.
WE ARE SETTING THE TEMPLATES OF THE NEW PARADIGM,
while at the very same time,
THE TEMPLATES OF THE NEW PARADIGM
ARE THOROUGHLY RESETTING OUR ENTIRE BEINGS.
This is definitely a time of a New Beginning, but it is much more than starting a new chapter; it's the beginning of a completely new story.