My Personal 'A Mu'a
For me, the past two months have been super intense and totally challenging in every way possible. July was full of non-stop activity, but August went completely off any map that I've ever known. It was like running the mother of all marathons. On August 1st, our cat had a routine operation which turned out to be more serious and emotionally devastating than we had thought. (She has finally recovered.) Around the same time, I suddenly had a feeling that we should move closer to our new Heart of AN land so we wouldn't have to drive 50 minutes from Ollantaytambo each time we wanted to visit the land. A few days later, a rental house became available that was right where we wanted to be. Almost instant manifestation!
As soon as I finished writing the August Surf Report, we started packing to get ready for our move at the beginning of September. Fortunately Maria was visiting from Germany and leapt into action. We could not have done it without her help.
A week later, we made a final visit to our AN land to see the new driveway and the beginning of the adobe wall. The energy there was so exquisite and new. I could feel that this special land welcomed all the changes; it was ready to physically manifest as the Heart of AN. As the Heart of AN comes alive, I can see that It really is as magical and wondrous as we'd imagined (and hoped) that it would be. It truly is a totally new reality filled with incredible freshness and PURE TRUE LOVE.
At the land, I experienced an immersion into the energies of the New Landscape much stronger than anything I had known. This gave me a deep sense of wonder and awe. Since then, the feeling of this deep internal immersion into the New Landscape has stayed with me, helping me get through all the immense tasks that lay in wait for us.
By the middle of August, we were in New Mexico for a week visiting my daughters, getting important papers so I could do my last year's taxes and getting my books that were long stored there sent off to the order fulfillment house so they can finally be available.
Although we were only there for a very busy week, I unexpectedly encountered several people from my distant past. I didn't seek them out or let them know that I was coming, but they suddenly would appear at my daughter's house. It was like watching my past in a flashback. Three were old relationships, another was an old friend who used to manage my shop in Taos over thirty years ago. With most of them, there was little to say. With one of them, the love and closeness were still strong; I was able to thank him for our time together and say all that had long been unsaid. It was a powerful time of completion.
Next, we went to the island of Kauai in Hawaii for ten days. We spent most of the time there, not at the beach sipping Pina Coladas and developing our tans, but in my storage lockers, going through boxes of the things that I had left behind when I moved to Peru three years ago. We had to find and remove all batteries and non water-based paints that were scattered about in over 150 boxes. We also met with my tax lady and did last year's taxes. Our storage lockers were emptied and our container was loaded for shipment to Peru.
We had myriad tasks to achieve, an almost impossible list of things to do, yet somewhat miraculously everything fell into place. Our greatest joy was being able to spend some time with Kalasara, Ya and beloved Omashar. This felt extremely poignant. On our final night in Kauai, we were even able to hear Omashar sing at a local cafe, "We'll never walk this way again...." What an exquisite gift.
The travels back to Peru took us two days, with two nights of ZERO sleep. Arriving back in Ollantaytambo on the morning of September 2nd, we slept for 1 1/2 hours, then leapt into action and packed everything that was unpacked. The next day we moved. I didn't even turn on my computer for four days. When I did, I immediately received a Skype phone call telling me that the very dear Elariul (Erik Berglund), had left the planet on the day we returned to Peru. It has been over a month of non-stop action, intensity, completion and forward movement while in a state of profound exhaustion. It has been both surreal and ultra real. Life and Death. Hello and Goodbye. And that is why this Surf Report is so late....
Since then, we have been in the unpacking process and trying to get our lives back to functionability. The compacted layers of tiredness are slowly evaporating. We are now living in a beautiful adobe rental house, with infinitely more refined energies than our old, cold, dark, noisy house in Ollantaytambo. I can look outside my office window and see the mighty mountain Apu of Pitusiray which is very inspiring. And we are a kilometer or so from the Heart of AN. All the completions of July and August have succeeded in moving our physical reality into the New Landscape.
What really helped us get through all this was my powerful immersion into the New Landscape at the beginning of August. This has strengthened our unfaltering knowingness that everything will turn out all right, no matter how it appears in the outside world. Everything is happening in its perfect timing. ALL IS WELL. And I know this within the core of my being....